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January Reflection

 Personal Wins I ran the most miles I have EVER run in a January. Like, ever in my whole life. I did NOT see that coming and I am so proud. Although I am still not where I would like to be, I made morning meditation a much more frequent and regular part of my routine. I went on a run or walk almost EVERY day of school at lunch. This was a game-changer for me. Getting outside and into nature put a hard reset on my day and has made a huge difference in my mental health while at school What I Learned I am still terrible at getting up in the morning. I so wish I was better about getting up and getting a workout in before school.  I bite off way more than I can chew for a day. This bleeds into all facets of my life, including my expectations for what I will be able to accomplish for school, workouts, and around the house. I need to make my expectations more realistic so that I don't feel disappointed with myself when I can't get it all done. Important Goals Met I wrote 10 days this

Sharp January in 1 Second Snippets

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  Sharp 1 second every day for January 2021

To get out of the pit

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  I get "stuck" a lot. The best way I can describe it is as a state of being where I am constantly cognizant of the urgent need to do something and of the overwhelming volume of what needs doing, yet I am frozen in place, unable to get started. So instead of all the somethings that need doing, I do nothing. Then, I berate myself for not doing anything. Then, I stress about all of the things that need doing. Wash, rinse, repeat. It leaves me feeling panicky and hopeless; worthless and exhausted. With experience, reflection, and a lot of therapy, I have found that what helps me out of this state of what I can only imagine to be like near-hypnosis are simple, small, manageable tasks. The deeper and darker my state of "stuckness", the smaller in scale those tasks need to be.  What sometimes happens is that by doing one of these small tasks, I gain some traction to perhaps take on another one; or sometimes even to move on to one of my "medium-sized" tasks. Some

Nothing New Here

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I know that New Year's Resolutions get mixed reviews. Some set resolutions in earnest. Others roll their eyes at the futility. Still more argue that resolutions shouldn't be saved just for a New Year. I fall very squarely in the first camp. I love setting New Year's resolutions, being fully aware that I might fail miserably. I'm also totally okay with tweaking resolutions as the year goes by and making new resolutions at random points throughout the year. I'm also notorious for biting off more than I can chew and for letting my failed attempts at resolutions discourage me to the point of quitting. So, I can also empathize with people who find setting them futile. In short, I'm a hot mess, but I guess that doesn't stop me from trying to start the New Year right. So, here is the first resolution that I am exploring this year: ---------------------------------- I am not buying anything "new". I want to commit to the environment by limiting my purchase